February 26, 2012
Almost one month ago I gave birth to our fifth child and first boy. We started our school year back last July so that we could take things easy for a while before and after the baby came. I thought I was prepared. And I pretty much was. For the birth. Not for what came two weeks later. My recovery was slower than usual. I just didn't feel well. I kept thinking it was because I'm just not as young as I used to be. Still, something didn't feel right. I was having some chest pain and trouble breathing. It finally got so bad that I couldn't get a good breath at all or even talk without coughing. I called my doctor thinking it was asthma. They told me to immediately go to the ER and get checked. Long story short, on Valentines Day I was hospitalized with severe, big (saddle) Pulmonary Embolisms filling both my lungs as well as a lung infarction. I had no idea what this meant. I was listening to the doctors and nurses telling me how lucky I was to be here. It wasn't until alone in my dark hospital room later that night that I understood this was a life threatening situation and boy had I been watched over and extremely blessed! I was separated from my baby and family for five days while we waited for the blood thinners to work and thankfully I was allowed to return home. My amazing husband kept the house running while taking care of five kids, one a newborn! Now, however, I'm learning that this is a slow and painful recovery. I want nothing more than to return to life and my daily duties. But, that's just not going to happen for a while and what I need to learn is patience. Life just does not always go how we plan! Right now I'm wondering how we are going to get back into school when I've barely got energy to take care of my newborn. This teacher doesn't have a substitute to call in! I guess this is a learning situation. We will have to take it one day at a time. We are all learning lessons in patience, faith, blessings, depending on each other and others, accepting help, priorities and especially relying on a loving Heavenly Father, who is aware, and His plan. School learning will take place again, right?
Labels: written by Jessica