April 25, 2013

Lord, I Believe

I would just like to thank everyone who commented on my last post.  The day that went up was my birthday and we had out of town guests, so I didn't have much time to come back and discuss.  I was too busy making yummy lasagna and a poked cake.  But thank you from the bottom of my heart.  I wept because not only did some of you share that you had past or current struggles of a similar nature, but you all were nice to me anyway!  Thank you.

As you may remember (and if you don't, it's ok because I'm going to tell you again), I set a goal to do family scripture study everyday for the last month.  Well, let me just say, everyday didn't happen and I'm ok with it.  But it did happen 10 days and to me, that's better than nothing.  That's 10 more days than we read the month before last.  So I'm going to celebrate the small success.

Things I've learned:
  • Don't put it off til the end of the day.  I'll forget.  I'll always, always, always forget.  Bedtime is so chaotic that I just want it done so I can get a break.  Scripture study is the last thing on my mind.  Getting kids ready and quiet is first.
  • Most important-make it part of the schedule.  My days were chaotic anyway, but moreso with guests.  We didn't have a daily routine/schedule.  Scripture study didn't get done if I didn't know exactly when it was supposed to happen.  Now I know: right after breakfast, we do circle time.  We do the calendar, we sing action songs, we read a chapter from the scriptures.
I recently came to the realization that every goal we set in life requires self-motivation and lots of it.  Any goal we set will have times that are hard, times where we want to give up, times where we wonder if it's worth it. There are some goals that we can accomplish on our own.  But there are some that we cannot.  I can't really think of any big goal that I have seen through to the end.  I've never been good at enduring, so that will be my prayer from here on out: help me endure.

Now about this new talk.  It's the biggest one that jumped out at me during all of conference because it's pretty much where I am right now.  A little seed of faith, but lots of questions and lots of uncertainty.  So onward I go, not knowing what's in store, but having faith that God can get me through.

Some of my favorite quotes:

I would say to all who wish for more faith, remember this man! In moments of fear or doubt or troubling times, hold the ground you have already won, even if that ground is limited. In the growth we all have to experience in mortality, the spiritual equivalent of this boy’s affliction or this parent’s desperation is going to come to all of us. When those moments come and issues surface, the resolution of which is not immediately forthcoming, hold fast to what you already know and stand strong until additional knowledge comes.

Except in the case of His only perfect Begotten Son, imperfect people are all God has ever had to work with. That must be terribly frustrating to Him, but He deals with it. So should we.

Be as candid about your questions as you need to be; life is full of them on one subject or another. But if you and your family want to be healed, don’t let those questions stand in the way of faith working its miracle.

Last observation: when doubt or difficulty come, do not be afraid to ask for help. If we want it as humbly and honestly as this father did, we can get it. The scriptures phrase such earnest desire as being of “real intent,” pursued “with full purpose of heart, acting no hypocrisy and no deception before God.”

These things I declare to you with the conviction Peter called the “more sure word of prophecy.” What was once a tiny seed of belief for me has grown into the tree of life, so if your faith is a little tested in this or any season, I invite you to lean on mine. 

I feel like I've given a talk.  Thank you for letting me share my experiences.  Please continue to share yours.

Megan is the proud mother of Pigby (boy, age 7), Digby (boy, age 3), and Chuck (girl, age 2).  She enjoys spending time in the mountains and lesson planning.

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Tristan said...

Horray for 10 days! That is a wonderful accomplishment.

I loved this talk too, though it applied to me differently. Gotta love that about General Conference. We have a child (our 7th) with medical needs that are lifelong and I know that healing will come in the resurrection, but until then I'm hanging on to faith and asking for even a 'partial blessing' as Elder Holland described. Enough to get us through each day now.

Marcina said...

His talk was so powerful and beautiful! I loved the part where he told about the young man who was apologizing for "just" believing, and he hugged the boy so hard and told him to never apologize for belief, just let it work within you and go forward in faith. I'm sure that's what the Lord would do with all of us. I cried, it was so beautiful! Thanks for sharing your thoughts, may the Lord bless you and all of us as we "walk by faith" and become closer to the Savior.