June 29, 2013

Confession



I have something to confess:

I make lists and then avoid them. They stress me out. Lists make my stomach hurt. I will find anything else more  "important" to do than what is on my list. I sometimes feel that lists were invented by the devil (same as my feelings about Algebra). I can't even say the "o" word (organize) without a pang that makes we wince (ow). Reading Doctrine and Covenants 109:8 (organize, order)  gives me a stomachache (Dana has seen this phenomenon).

With that said, I will now say that I am reading "The Beginning of Better Days: Divine Instruction to Women From the Prophet Joseph Smith,"  and on page 19 Sis. Pearce  mentions that a particular teaching got her thinking about the to-do lists (pang) that we carry with us (not me!).  But what followed was her personal insight she received from studying the minutes kept by Eliza R. Snow (who was the RS secretary, I believe, at these meetings when the Prophet taught): she can be more prayerful in her list making.

 Epiphany!

I have a testimony that I, of myself, am nothing, and when I allow the Lord to help me, things happen. I know this.

President Henry B. Eyring said (and sis Pearce quotes), " The promise to you and me in the last days is that after seeking God and serving his children with unwearyingness, we will come to know his will.  The promise is not just that I will have the power to do what's on my list of tasks but that I will know what to put there.  On those occasions when I have known what should be there, I've found myself glancing at the list as a source of joy, not anxiety."

These people were put here on this earth at this time just for me.  I know it!

So, I shall bravely stand before a piece of paper, and with shaking hand, ask Heavenly Father what to put on.....on my.....l...li....lissss...list.

Teresa (52) continues to homeschool her 2 adult disabled children (who are now ready for things they weren't interested in during their "school age years.")  She is now going to college with her youngest (18) and eldest (27)--they seem to do things as a group.  She knows that people develop at a different pace and are ready for the world at different times. She knows she has not posted in a long time, but hopes to post about her adult children's academic progress and post about Katie's homemade paper mache Medieval and Viking weaponry and shields. They are fabulous!

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Courtney @ Ordinary Happily Ever After said...

Love it! I hate lists too. I always make them in my ipad and then it gets SO backed up that eventually I have to just delete them all!

mamacowx6 said...

I simply adore lists! So long as the items are things already accomplished or things I DON"T have to do:)
And this,
I have a testimony that I, of myself, am nothing, and when I allow the Lord to help me, things happen. I know this.
I am stealing that and it will become my new mantra!

Anonymous said...

Teresa, I would like to hear more about your experiences with your disabled children. I have a son with Down Syndrome and Autism. He is in school but we do a lot of work at home also. Great article, thanks. Linda